Multitude Mondays: Green Grass and Gratitude And the Secret to Chasing Away the Grumpies
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I’m bent low mopping clumps of freshly-mowed grass off of the kitchen floor again.
I hear the front door slam and make a mental note to lock it when I finish my grass-clean up so dirty feet will be forced to find another entry. Hopefully one without light carpet to stain.
It’s been the kind of Saturday I always say I want for my children.
No hurry up and get in the van.
No setting up lawn chair camp on the sidelines of yet another soccer field.
No baseball practices or piano lessons.
Just sunshine and backyard play.
Lemonade slurping and popsicle licking.
Shoes cast aside and toes set free.
Baby dolls slung over shoulders and sand pies mixed to soothe their hungry plastic cries.
Bicycle races on the driveway and catch me if you can chases across the grass.
So why do I feel so grumpy as I crawl across the kitchen floor on my knees and scrub the sticky puddle of lemonade that drizzled off the countertop when my eight-year-old generously served her little siblings a cool drink while I was switching the laundry from washing machine to dryer?
Why do I feel frazzled and drained when the day has unfolded deliciously slow and long?
Why do the sand toys scattered across the backyard like a hopscotch board and the scooters abandoned on the play house steps and the squirt guns hung on the tree limbs with bright red yarn threaten to push me over an invisible edge?
Why do the muddy flip flops at the deck door make me want to holler like a cranky toddler?
Or at least toss my mop rag across the room in pouty protest.
The sound of padding feet interrupt my grumbling. I see his mud-frosted toes before I hear his voice.
“Mommy?”
I turn toward my littlest boy, his windblown hair crowned with a filthy John Deere cap and an assortment of wayward wood chips. Splats of sand cling to the sweat beads poke-a-dotting his forehead and his green eyes dance with five-year-old delight.
“Can I have some more lemonade?”
I nod wordlessly and take one more wet swipe across the kitchen floor before I rise.
Josh watches as I rinse the dirty mop cloth in the kitchen sink, grass pooling like a green whirlwind on the edge of the drain.
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“I’m so thankful God gave us grass,” he murmurs, his voice joyful and sincere.
“He could have just given us dirt, right Mom? Dirt without grass to hold it down.”
He peers out the window and sighs contentedly.
“But He gave us dirt and grass. Didn’t He, Mom?”
I lift my eyes from the grungy sink.
Glance out the kitchen window at the glorious carpet of green.
And remember the words I’d read not long ago as I’d sat waiting in the pick-up-lane at school.
Thankfulness is more than an act. It’s an orientation. It’s a reframing of reality- not in some whistling-in-the-dark way but in a fixing-our-eyes-on-what-is-unseen way.
Hannah is dangling from the top of the swing set like a monkey in a tree top while Maggie is crouched on her haunches, stirring sand soup in a bright orange bucket and chattering non-stop to her big sister.
My husband is still shoveling mulch in the flower beds, his grey t-shirt stained from sweat and hard work. And my eleven-year-old is dribbling a soccer ball across the sun-streaked lawn.
Peering through my new frame I see it clearly now- the grass blowing in the breeze, each blade bending and swaying in its own unabashed hallelujah.
Hallelujah to the Unseen One.
Joshua hugs my knees and races to join his sisters in the back yard.
Barefooted I follow, grateful for the One who grows emerald grass on top of all that dirt;
awed by the Hand that heaps grace on top of a mama made from dust.
The Overflow: Then God said, “Let the land produce plants. Let them bear their own seeds. And let there be trees on the land that bear fruit with seeds in it. Let each kind of plant or tree have its own kind of seeds.” And that’s exactly what happened. The land produced plants. Each kind of plant had its own kind of seeds. The land produced trees that bore fruit with seeds in it. Each kind of tree had its own kind of seeds. God saw that it was good. -Genesis 1:11-12
So thankful for these gifts that re-frame my reality…
1072. A park filled with squealing second graders.. end of the school year picnic
1073. Hannah in her pink batting helmet- all smiles!
1074. A backyard filled with giggling fifth-grade girls armed with squirt guns and giggles.
1075. Sharing a cup of coffee and my heart on the porch with a wise friend.
1076. The aroma of freshly-mowed grass
1077. Sat. morning slow down- no alarm clock or waiting school bus.
1078. Joshua tiptoeing in our bedroom at 6:30 A.M. dressed in his John Deere work shirt- “Dad, are you ready for yard work?”
1079. Clumps of grass on the kitchen floor- lavish grace in disguise
Linking again with Ann and these lovely grace seekers: l.l. for on, in, and around mondays, laura for playdates with god, ruth at the better mom, and jen for soli deo gloria
Oh my. Such a wise little one you have there. Sometimes, I think those slow-down Saturdays are the hardest for us mammas. When we are away from home, no messes can be made. But all this beauty you describe going on in your yard? Wow. These are the things they will remember. I need some of those gratitude frames too…
This is just simply insanely beautiful and beautifully written!
Janelle
what a beautiful post and i love your blog look, feel.. it felt.. refreshing! thank you for this reminder! blessings
That five year old just melted my heart. And he’s the same one who awoke at 6:30 am ready for yard work, too! 🙂 Kids are something, aren’t they… there are so many moments they teach and help US to grow just by being themselves. A lovely post and message, Alicia.
Yes, “lavish grace in disguise”…wonderful post…blessings to you and your family 🙂
visiting from Ann’s 1000 Gifts… enjoyed your post. Saturday slowdown- sounds wonderful.
“thankful is more than an act…it is an orientation…so true…love the honesty of the post…we dream of certain times and when they come…what happens. sweet gifts…blessings to you~
You so need a swifter!!! LOL You explain it perfectly – the wonderful days of nothingness – and how we almost miss it! I love conversations like that with my boys. Their heart insights put my focus back on what I’m supposed to be watching!
Thankfulness is more than an act. It’s an orientation. It’s a reframing of reality- not in some whistling-in-the-dark way but in a fixing-our-eyes-on-what-is-unseen way.
What a glorious piece of writing, this whole moment in time frozen in one single blog post. And the statement above, oh yes. Thankfulness IS an orientation. A state of mind. An eternal mindset that can see us through any storm, any trial, any valley, any fire, flood, hell.
Oh this week has been a long one…and yet it has been fun…but like you so amazingly expressed…I am filled with pure exhaustion! 🙂
Looking back we will want these exhausted time back…at least that is what they all say! 🙂
Miss you!
I often ask myself that same question…If I’m living my dream, why aren’t I happier about it?
Keep up the God work.